Cherished Moments: Keeping My Joy

Journal Entry: December 21, 2012

Last night I had the most wonderful news which was followed by a great conversation; the person who was in the hospital is out and feeling better.  That is truly a blessing.

As you know, yesterday I still had an attitude and gave Mr. Man the cold shoulder.  Yes, I hold a grudge for a few days.  I know we should practice forgiveness, but it is hard when it borders on many conversations that we have had over the years.  As I told him, I am OK with taking the backseat to the business that was just started, but I refuse to take a backseat to your friends. 

Mr. Man must not have had a lot of sleep and was extremely grumpy this morning: mumbling about yesterday.  I refused to allow him to steel my joy.  He just got a small taste of what was dished out.  At least I wasn't blantantly ignoring him while I sat on the phone and graced him with my presence.  Instead I was sitting on the couch watching television and would only speak until spoken too.  It was his choice to go to the bedroom and not come enjoy a movie with the rest of the household.  It is his choice to be miserable, not mine.

The past two days I was a little dizzy, but I don't think it is because of the new medication.  Although I am over the age of 40, I think it may be an ear infection from sinuses draining.  It is starting to get painful to swallow on the right side due to my ear and infection.  Ugh!  If it isn't one thing it is another.

Since starting the Resparidone, I have noticed my thoughts are cleared and my memory is improving.  I still occasionally get a hiccup in a conversation, but it is getting better.  I have also noted that I can sit still at my desk longer.  Now if only I could hold my concentration.  I am really hoping that this is the right medication for me so I do not have to work my way through the collage.

My mind drifted onto my oldest son since he has not called or wrote in a couple of weeks.  That is not good.  So, I did a little research and found him> he was moved to a different facility.  This one allows emails, so I sent him one along with some money.  It is almost Christmas and the last think I want is for my son to think I do not care.  He will always be my baby.

I was a little agitated this afternoon; thinking about all the things I have yet to do to be prepared for Monday's dinner.  I tried really hard to not let this become overwhelming and ruin my day.  Had to focus harder on work.  At one point I just had to take a breather and write a list of things to do:

Tonight:

• Pick up Turkey and Ham
• Make hair appointment for kids
• Clean the house.

Saturday:

• Take kids to get haircut
• Mani/Pedi
• Go to Guess at MOA
• Get groceries
• Start baking
• Bathe dog

Sunday:

• Finish baking
• Do laundry
• Touch-up clean
• Wash holiday dishes
• Prepare bird and ham for oven

Monday:

• Put Turkey on oven and slow cook while at work
• Go to Work
• Come home and put Ham in oven
• Peel potatoes
• Final preparations
• Dinner & Relaxation begins at 7pm

Whew! Now that it is written down and I can visibly see my tasks, they aren't so great.  They are nice, neat, and organized.  I will attempt to work on one project at a time, but you know how that may go...  Should be interesting and I will keep you posted.